I feel like such an outcast. I feel that way. Am I one? I'll never know. I wish I was like everyone else. I wish I had something to belong to. To think and feel the way others do. I wish I wasn't weird, I wish girls liked me. But I am so out of touch with the required behavioral patterns. I wouldn't know how to act the part. I wish I was a simple man, but I can't even sort out my own life. My head is such a mess. I just can't see the world as others. I'm useless, without function, without goals. I wish I had goals. But I don't care for goals. I don't care for anything. I have no strong feelings about anything. I know, that there is nothing I really need, apart from surviving. So I'm not convinced, not sold on things I want from time to time.