This is what it means to be the average grownup.
I am a very strict man. The concept of forgiving is alien to me. I will shoot you down once I get a chance. Oh, an I am an angry man too. I don't get annoyed. I get properly angry. And if I'd let me have my way, I'd be shouting and violently beating people up every other day. Too bad I cannot. I wish it were that simple.
The more I live the more it seems to me that the world is rotten. I can think of no place in the world that I would say is great to live in. And the people. I've grown to think that they are all idiots. A select few are above. I am stupid, I know nothing and generally am pretty worthless. Realistically. Shit personality too, but I enjoy it. And when someone underperforms compared to me, this enrages me. How can you be more useless than me?? What kind of a retard are you? And then I start acting like I know it all - because others are even less than myself. How can I respect someone like that?
And everyone's delusional and submerged in their small lives. There's much greater stuff and it's so grim and here you are going to a theater play in London. Not famine or environmentalist stuff, I'm not a charity. Life is vast and grim, the world is. And there is nothing to it. Most everything we do is mundane.
But we push forward with no regard.
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