Addictions

 It's not about being unable to control yourself when the line separating yourself from a 'drug addict' or any other form of addict label is at your toes, it's that it feels so good not to control yourself, to let go. You could say 'no' but you won't, you hate yourself but you still do it. I mean can you say you live for anything else but pleasure? Does supporting your family not give you a sense of reward? Does wearing clean clothes not make you feel good? Wat about hedonism? Did you know that shopping is #1 leisure activity in the world? Not sports, as some might expect - shopping. Well I don't enjoy it, I choose extreme sports and sport bikes, drift bikes (thanks to my restless father - that guy, say what you will, he is hardcore, he kicks ass). It's different to everyone, it's what you like, and some choose drugs. Well they fuck you up but they feel good and that's what I'm here for. Such self-destructive behavior feels bittersweet. Why am I saying this? Did you see the video: 'Charlie Sheen's interview'? Sorry, I can't have it embedded, it's what it says it is. You might not agree to what he's saying but the strength with which he belies in his own truth just like you believe in yours (and you are probably both right because there are many truths, you just choose), is a very powerful drive. You can only reach as much as strong your drive is. Yes, exceptions included. Some might call it preparedness and say that only the mind of that prepared can spot an opportunity. Some even give curves, point at the intersection of the two, those of chance and preparedness, some point and tell you "There, that's luck, defined". Do you believe it? It makes sense, doesn't it? Do I believe it? For me it's different. But aren't we all?

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